>:O Edit: Meme added!

[oneiro]

Hamimi_fk - I think your accidental deletion of large bodies of text is contagious. I was just doing that meme you posted, and I clicked a bookmarked tab at the top of my browser by accident, and lost it all! -sigh- Not as bad as losing a story, I know, but still. -_-'' I'll probably end up doing it again in a bit.

So, a bit of writing talk.... aka bitching, something I do quite well.

I always get seized with half-ideas. Some kind of vivid image, a mood, a theme, a song, whatever. Sometimes, it will get a little more detailed as I really think about it, or begin to write. So I'll have a premise, a bit of action, a bit of direction. But I have such a problem forming a fully thought-out plot. A beginning, a middle, and an end. And so, every story gets stuck somewhere, and I'm just like... err... x_x And I just stare at the document, typing a word or two and then furiously pressing backspace.

I hate it. I want to push these pieces to go somewhere, but I don't want it to be contrived. And, as I've previously mentioned, I for some reason have this mental block against just shutting my mind off and writing. I don't want to write paragraphs and paragraphs about crap where characters dilly-dally in some room with their thumbs up their asses, making bullshit conversation and doing inane things because I myself don't actually know what the hell is going on.

I have so many incomplete projects in my writing folder, and there are some I'm really passionate about. For instance, my zombie piece (well... more of a lesbian romance infused with bdsm and magical realism). I like its current prose style, which is a bit more dreamy and poetic than my other pieces, because that style just happens to fit the content the most. I like what I have so far - it's on point, nothing seems superfluous... it's good. My two main characters just walked into a bar... and... that's it. As far as I know, they've still just entered, and are standing around tapping their feet and waiting, much like video game characters do when you drop the controller to go get a snack and end up forgetting about the game for hours because you're stuffing your face on everything in the world... um... not that that's ever happened to me or anything. >_>''

I always wait for bursts of inspiration. I always think, ok, as I fall asleep tonight, I will stumble across an ingenious idea as I'm drifting into a hypnagogic dream state. Or, I vow to come up with an idea in the shower, a hot and steamy thinking tank that will facilitate literary revelations. But I always just end up ruminating on something dumb for ten minutes until I realize I've done no productive thinking whatsoever.

Very annoying. I've tried outlining, but I've never been the outlining sort, even with school papers. Perhaps that has spoiled me because I've always kicked ass on academic papers, without fail, but just because that works for me (which I'm sure I won't be getting away with forever, when I eventually have to write a dissertation and things like that), that doesn't mean I can wing it completely when it comes to my creative writing.

Hm... anyway... that rant was longer than expected. Perhaps I should focus my ranting energy into making my stories go somewhere. That might be wise. :]

In other, unrelated news: My cat pooped on the floor last night because his litter box was full (my fault, I'm negligent, shame on me), and for some reason, got it all over his belly and his ear. His ear. Why his ear? I don't know. So I had to bathe him in the sink, and even though he was adorable once it was over, all scruffy and damp, I felt terrible because he was struggling to get out, and I could feel his heart beating so fast the whole time. And I never wash him, ever - this was the first time. I don't tell others what to do with their pets, every animal is different, but I see no point in bathing my cat. He doesn't like water, does fine cleaning himself, and always smells great. But this was necessary... I mean... he was smeared with poo all over. I don't think he should be licking that off of himself.

Apparently he has forgiven me because I woke up this morning to find him lying by my feet, and he purred loudly while I pet him. He warms my soul.


Edit: Okay, meme time. Yep, I'm that bored. Didn't take me too long to get back to it.

First, choose 10-15 pairings/threesomes/whatever. Then, put your mp3/ipod/music library on shuffle and match the first song with the first pairing, etc. down the line. (Optional - Include fitting lyrics from the song for the pairing!)

I skipped the song with no lyrics because I wanted to include lyrics. Other than that, I made do with what I had, promise.



1. Mitsuru/Akihiko (Persona 3)

Ocean Soul - Nightwish

Walking the tideline
I hear your name
Is angels whispering
Something so beautiful it hurts

2. Junpei/Chidori (Persona 3)

The Prey - Dead Kennedies

You're from out of town
I can tell that by your shoes

3. Stan/Kyle (South Park)

Little Johnny Jewel - Siouxsie and the Banshees

Well, some thought this is sad
And others thought it was mad
They're just scratching the surface

4. Shizuma/Nagisa (Strawberry Panic)

Shedding Skin - Pantera

I don't think you belong in here, I feel I'm sick.
Don't ask, cause, you know damn well where, where I've been.
I've kept a simple woman through the thick and thin.
But I found the guts to sever from my siamese twin.

I throw you away...
Everyday.
A dead part of life.
Strangling back...
Seething black.
In between my longing for torture.

Blood on my face that came from your face.
A mix of kissing and bleeding.
I put you away...
I shut you away...
I pissed you away....
I threw you away.

I'm shedding skin...
Changing within...
Falling in.

Through swollen eyes...
Dreamed you died...
Caught inside.

5. Amane/Hikari (Strawberry Panic)

25 to Life - Eminem

Ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness
And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left

6. Utena/Anthy (Revolutionary Girl Utena)

Bombtrack - Rage Against the Machine

Yeah, it's just another bombtrack
And suckas be thinkin' that they can fake this
But I'm gonna drop it at a higher level
'Cause I'm inclined to stoop down
Hand out some beat-downs

(the lyrics are more apt for Utena having to duel to get Anthy, but whatever lol)

7. Shane/Jenny (The L Word)

Old Friend (Theme of Elle) - Silent Hill

So did your time away from here
Renew your soul to make you strong?
For your return I thought you knew
It feels good just holding you

She’s gone, I feel
I think there’s something wrong
Have you seen her?
She’s been away too long

So look around
This dismal place
Some things have changed
What can’t you tell

I’m glad you’re here
I see you’re well
And welcome home
Embrace your hell

8. Spike/Faye (Cowboy Bebop)

Two Steps - Boa


When I go, gonna buy me a boat and float to the sea
And when I leave gonna find a land where I'll be free
I don't need to listen to your policies
How can we follow if you don't understand
I can tell you've closed the door
To the forest who cries
Do you want to live proudly or are you happy in the lost world

...

I believe in something so strong
That you believe in something so wrong
Now I find I'm moving away
Coz you believe in nothing at all



9. Haruka/Michiru (Sailor Moon)

One of a Kind - Placebo

Two of a kind and no one home,
I'm in a crowd and I'm still alone,
Can't you see these skies are breaking?
Cos one of a kind is all I own

10. Haruka/Usagi (Sailor Moon)

Real Thing - Alice in Chains

Even if you say just one more
I won't leave you alone

11. Usagi/Rei (Sailor Moon)

Slow Dive - Siouxsie and the Banshees

And you revel in the dips
when your backbone slips
taking honeysuckle sips
from your rolling hips
It shifts and it shifts

12. Jane/Quinn (Daria)

Shadow of the Moon - Blackmore's Night

Driven by a world gone mad
She took flight...
"Feel no sorrow, feel no pain,
Feel no hurt, there's nothing gained...
Only love will then remain"

13. Spike/Julia (Cowboy Bebop)

Incarnadine - Nothingface

And tonight it all turns black again
So you can hide inside your fucking mind
And cry because you’re still alive


Some of those fit really well, and some fit in a more abstract way.

Comments

[hamimi_fk]

^^;;; Sorry. I didn't mean to infect you with my absentmindedness. It uh, just happened. Yeah. *shifty eyes*

Oh wow. I can totally relate to your writing dilemmas (even the attempts at thinking in the shower - I believe now that this is simply impossible. I tend to end up running off in tandems that take me so far from my original thought that I can no longer remember it. Or I sing silly songs in my head. IDEK). It's shameful the amount of WIPs on my computer that started out as great moments of brilliance and then fizzed out. Or not. Some I'm still working on, just slowly. Which is bad. I know. *facepalm*

Though for me, my hesitance or reason for fizzling out tends to be from the lack of ideas (rare) or being embarrassed (most often). So I write a lot of porn (I'm a pervert, this is old news) but I actually get embarrassed midway through and push it aside, eventually forgetting it. Or I feel the fic isn't good enough and abandon it. I've recently crept back into a phase where I realize I'm writing too many fics that could be so much better, so I don't write as I try to come up with better story ideas. Though I don't outline. Ever. All my 'outlines' are in my head. Once I get a big idea, it stays there (which is weird - I can't remember what I had for breakfast yesterday most days, but I can easily account to you the story and all the character details of a manga idea I created when I was 15).

For instance, my zombie piece (well... more of a lesbian romance infused with bdsm and magical realism). I like its current prose style, which is a bit more dreamy and poetic than my other pieces, because that style just happens to fit the content the most. I like what I have so far - it's on point, nothing seems superfluous... it's good. My two main characters just walked into a bar... and... that's it.

o__o I'd read this in a heartbeat. Zombies? Lesbians? Romance? In one fic? My heart, be still. Heh, and why does them walking into a bar feel like the beginning of a lewd joke? But seriously, what I wanted to say here, and hopefully it applies to any of your ideas - In actually attempting more wordy stories, I've realized that sometimes when you have one idea for, say, a particular scene, it's a good idea to focus on that idea and build around it.

So like, okay. The two main characters walked into a bar, right? Perhaps though, that isn't where the story begins. How did they arrive there? Why did they go there? Did they have plans? Out on a date? Working from there tends to help. Also don't be afraid to think of scenes later on in the story then you can just come up with a way to bridge the two scenes. The major zombie project I'm writing is in scenes as they come to me. The only definite scene that is in place so far is the opening, which I wrote after three other scenes later on. So yeah, hope that helps? ^^; /end rambling

>.< What is it with cats going where they aren't suppose to? One of my pooped in the tub last night (for pretty much the same reason yours did - but this was partially my fault and partially everyone else's that lives here fault). I agree with you on the cleaning aspect of cats. Unless there's a definite reason to do it, it's best to let them clean themselves. They're better at it than most people are.

And may I add that I love how your meme came out? I can't speak for the P3 ones, but the rest are awesome to see (though I don't ship Spike/Faye ever, but that's just me). I really love the lyrics for Spike/Julia, really fitting IMO. Your music list fascinates me also. Eminem and Alice in Chains and BOA? =D I thought only I had such a weird diverse and varied playlist!

(long reply is long - sorry!)

[oneiro]

It's good to hear that someone can relate, especially the shower thing. :P

I used to write porn-ish fics too, but not that much. I can definitely relate to feeling embarrassed midway though, heh. When I was younger I took a stab at the whole "write racy porn fics so fangirls can squeal," but now, any fic with explicit sex is done so in a more sensual, soft way... much like your Spashley fic. Definitely not a fade-out sex scene, but not raunchy. But for the most part, my shipping fics are just lovey-dovey romantic schmoopie fests, because I'm lame. Although... if I ever continue that Jane and Quinn flick... it might be a bit naughtier. ^^''

The lesbian zombie fic isn't really like, a typical zombie fic, so don't get too excited if that's what you were thinking, lol. It's still technically a zombie fic, but I don't want that to make it sound cooler than it really is.

As for the bar thing, that's not what started the story, but it's true, I'm not exactly positive why they're going there. It could definitely just be a date, but I want more to happen there. There are some characters that I want to tie in, so I'm trying to think of how to relate the bar to that. I have a very vague, fuzzy idea, so perhaps once I solidify it, I'll relate it more to why they went to the bar in the first place, rather than having it just be incidental that they went there.

And yeah, I have a very diverse taste in music. :D That sounds super cliche, I know, but I've always been really eclectic when it comes to music. That's why I can never really shuffle my entire iTunes library because it will go from like... Marilyn Manson to B.B. King to k.d. lang to Rakim to Beethoven. I'll try to remember to always post what song I'm listening to in my entries so you can see what else I like - I'm sure our tastes cross paths a lot.

I was also really pleased with the lyrics I found for Spike/Julia, heh. And I think Spike/Faye, Shizuma/Nagisa, and Shane/Jenny also worked out really well.