oneiro | Ecstasy.

My life has completely changed these past few days. I cried more than I have ever cried in my life, I screamed, I felt like I was going to die, I purged everything, I turned myself inside out...

And then...

I feel like I'm on ecstasy. Really. It's kind of scary. My whole body is tingling. I feel like I just came or something. Filled with endorphins. Warmth everywhere. I'm so alive. I used to want to sleep and sleep and stay sleeping because I was so depressed and scared. Now, I just want to live. I want to shout out my love for everyone and everything.

I am so. Fucking. HAPPY. I feel SO overwhelmed with love and gratitude.

I can't wait to start my life with him. We are finally at the place we deserve to be. No more bullshit. I can't even explain what hell we have gone through these past few years. How completely miserable and wretched I felt.

And now... oh my god... I'm in the clouds. I can't. I sobbed and sobbed yesterday out of pure happiness and gratitude. That has NEVER happened to me before.

I'm buzzy and warm all over. I can't sleep. It's early. I no longer want to remain sleeping so I can forget the pain in my heart. I want to live live live live live.

I love everyone and I want to get to know everyone and reach out and just... oh my god... !!!

I love life. I'm ready for everything. One step at a time.